I can’t even remember the last time I’ve used this. The past 2 years have been an uphill battle for me mentally and emotionally, dealing with different issues going on in my family and personal life. I can’t shake this feeling I have of feeling so empty these days. I am just not satisfied with where I am right now. I really hate feeling like I have no control sometimes. I feel like I go back and forth between feelings of hurt, sadness, and anger on some days. I have many friends, and a family that loves me so much, that they would do anything for me, but sometimes I feel so alone. I miss my family on the east coast. I miss my best friends. I miss being happy and carefree.I hate to get all religious, or spiritual, or what not but I really need to work on my relationship with God. Maybe that is really what is missing from my life. Everyone is supposed to be happy, cheerful, and excited this time of the year, but I feel like I am trying so hard to enjoy the holidays. I don’t understand why it is so hard for me to just be truly happy again. Not fake happy. I should be ecstatic. I am so incredibly blessed with everything that I have in my life. I have a lot more than what others around the world could even dream of having. I would just love to have a peace of mind again and peace in my heart.
Alive | Krewella
As I mature I realize that I talk to myself more, I correct my own mistakes, I follow my own advice. Less people are around and that has allowed me to connect with myself. I’ve become one of my own best friends.(via lovely—delight)
first world problems are third world successes.